50% more maybe

title borrowed from Ruth's blog entry today. Still a faint pink line - alittle less pink, still way too early to know but hopeful and frightening. I am nticing how mush I want to protect Ruth and Chris from a roller coaster of possible losses instead of focusing on the possible delight for them in good outcome. I am working on remembering to operate out of "love not fear" as the attitudinal healing people say. It does seem to help to notice when I'm operating out of fear.