Mother's Day Blues

I feel sad about Ruth facing this Mother's Day not pregnant (and thinking she hasn't ovulated this cycle with the clomid). I had been thinking off and on during her pregnancy about how sweet it is to be pregnant on Mother's Day, was thinking she'd really be showing by then. And now its not like that at all. I think we'll go out to lunch tomorrow, not do anything on the actual day. Its hard to focus on me being a mother when she is a baby-less after making a good start in the motherhood direction.